The white hairs

Posted: April 8, 2016 in Musings, Recovery
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Do other trichsters get white hairs? About a year ago I started noticing that the hairs that were growing back in on my heavy pull areas were coming in white. Not like an off-gray or a lighter shade of my natural color, but stark bleach white.

I had someone tell me once that they come in white because the root area has been so damaged from repeated pulling that it no longer produces pigment. Huh. It makes sense.

The white hairs are the hardest not to pull. The whole thing with Trich is wanting everything to be uniform. Anything that feels and looks out of place must go. I have tried, but absolutely can’t resist pulling the white hairs. The first thing I do when I go to the bathroom is look in the mirror and examine carefully for the white hairs. When (not if) I find them I HAVE to get everyone of them out. I don’t realize how long I have been in the bathroom, then I look down at the sink. . . .

Another challenge, but after so many other challenges this one does not upset me too much. It does, of course, but the fact that I have hair extensions now and actual hair more than makes up for it.

On that note, if you have or are planning to get hair extensions, remember to not go more than the recommended 6-8 weeks to move them up. I put it off, partially because I was too busy and part because I am still scared to go the salon. Anyway, my real hair had grown out about 2 inches (horray!) but because it was still tethered to my extensions it got all dreaded up. So what would have been the stylist just sliding them up became having to take all of them out, comb out the dreads (which hurt like hell) and then put them all back in. I went in at 6:30 p.m. and did not get done until 1 a.m. I’ll not make that mistake again.

I have really enjoyed having the extensions, I wish I would have done it sooner. The hair on the top of my head is growing out, but it’s still pretty short, so it kind of looks like I have a mullet. Well, I do live in Idaho . . . so I still pin it back with clips and try to blend it all together as much as possible.

Having them has not really reduced my urge to pull, I still have great days and really tough ones as far as that goes, but it has lessened it simply because I cannot get to alot of the hair I used to pull. The extensions cover it up. When I reach back and feel one of the beads instead of hair it sort of snaps me out of my trance and I remember to stop, so perhaps it’s helping with my impulses. We’ll see.

I have not had long hair for so long that I don’t know how to style it. I’m pretty limited still with it being short on top and all, but when I go to the gym I try to pull it up in a pony tail or something and no matter what I end up with a crooked pony tail or a big poof of hair sticking out in one spot. It’s like starting over as a child learning how to style.

But I will take all of those things, in fact I am grateful for them. They are great problems to have. I’ll never take my hair for granted.

  1. I get white and silver hairs. Whether from aging or damage, it’s going to happen, eventually. I have more and more all the time. And yes…it’s mostly from areas I pull. However, I happen to pull from areas that are usually the first to turn gray.

    At first, it wasn’t a big deal. Now, I have so many of them, it takes hours to pull them all. I’m just not looking closely at my hair anymore. I just brush it, blow dry it, and put it up in a ponytail. Then, I check for bald spots, adjust as needed and spray the heck out of it. And I don’t look at it again until the next day.


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